Tuesday 15 March 2016

What Do I Want To Do With My Life?

I've been thinking about this lately. What do I want to do with my life? What do I want to get out of it? I wish life was simple, easy: for years I've just envisioned that I'd map out my life and that would be that. But nothing is ever that simple. And definitely not something as big as this topic.

So what do I want to do with my life? I just keep on repeating that over and over, because I really have no clue. But I do have dreams. Massive dreams that engulf me and make me so passionate because I want them to happen. I want them so bad. I do know what I'd like to do with my life, and for the moment, I'm working toward trying to achieve a few. Not many. A few. Here is my list.

Write a novel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've been working on this dream for so long. Ever since prep, when I came home with my first 'book' heavily decorated with pasta and glitter, this has always been a dream of mine. I got distracted over the next few years with history and novels and music and really hot male celebrities but I've realised that it never really left me. I still want it as badly as when I wrote that first story. I am currently working on a novel, and am in the stages of planning it even though all I want to do is write. But hey, at least it'll be that much better when I actually begin.

Expand my blog and meet new bloggers.
I have so many amazing blogger friends, of whom I actually consider some of the closest people in my life even though I've never met them. I would love love love to be able to talk to more bloggers, as it's so fun and I really do enjoy the lovely emails you guys send me. If you'd like to get in contact with me, my email is fragmentsofthestars23@gmail.com. Please do send me an email, I promise I don't bite! And to have more readers would be amazing. I don't expect to get 2 million followers overnight - and I don't really want to, otherwise I wouldn't be able to connect with you guys as much! But to have a few hundred followers would be so so so awesome.

Somehow turn watching The Graham Norton Show into a career.
Yeah... Onto the next one...

Accept what's happened to me and move on.
This is a pretty weird one to include. I think you guys were all expecting the to be fun and light, but this is something that I really need to work on. I think you all know that I've been through some pretty tough times, but if you don't... Well, I have. I really do think that I need to move on from what's happened in my life and try to focus on my future (and achieving all of these). I can leave my childhood for what it is: a past that I don't want to visit. And I can accept my future for what it is: an adventure I haven't started.

So I hope you like this little post, and I will have a sketch of the week up tomorrow! It will, once again, be Alice in Wonderland themed - why don't you try and guess which character it'll be? See you tomorrow, earthlings!

El xxx

9 comments:

  1. I have a lot of trouble knowing what I want to do with my life! IT IS A HARD QUESTION GAH. But get a book published is undoubtedly top of the list *crosses fingers* And I would like to be a famous blogger. XD I KNOW. A BIT SILLY. ,hehe But we can dream for whatever we want, right?! And plus I would love to have a huge house that is a library. Like books in all the rooms and shelves on every wall? #wishes

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    1. Don't we all? And it will probably always be top of mine. Being a famous blogger would be amazing, but if I'm being honest I wouldn't want to be too famous. Of course! I dream everyday about what I want to do with my life, but I won't get anywhere with half of them. OMG I NEED THAT HOUSE NOOOOOOW I HATE YOU CAIT FOR MAKING ME THINK ABOUT THAT :)

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  2. This is such a tough question to answer! Don't worry though, you have all the time in the world ahead of you, and new dreams will come and go: you'll change, and so will your aspirations, and this is how it should be! I learned this the hard way hahah but I did eventually. Just don't let it worry you too much, keep going along and the answers will come to you :) I have a panic of the day I finish studying, because this has been my life since I was 3. But then... what happens? So yes, I'm struggling with that too, but some answers came when I least expected them. Just enjoy what you do and do what you enjoy. I related a lot to your dreams, especially the first one and the last one. I've been writing since I can remember, and it's my passion. And the last one isn't weird. AT ALL. I wish I could forgive my past and stop blaming myself, and I'm getting there, because I know I would be so much happier :) And you can too! It's not about forgetting and acting like it didn't happen, because it did. It's about accepting it, taking what will help you grow and let go of what would be a burden. At least that's how I see it hahaha And honestly, that quote was SO inspiring! It came at the right time!
    Wow, that was a long comment hahah sorry ^^'

    onmywayacqua.blogspot.com | Acqua xx

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    1. I'm surprised you made it through all that! But thank you for your comment, it was so ugly. I'm constantly shocked at just how similar we are in a lot of ways - am I the only one getting this vibe? Haha I think I'm actually quite looking forward to the day I finish studying, it just places so much pressure on you. And I don't think I could ever stop writing. I only really got into it about three years ago, but it's just so soothing and it's such a brilliant way to release my emotions. And I really do wish that I could just erase my childhood from my memory sometimes, however that's not possible so I'm just trying to live my life to the fullest.
      Haha I think my comment's just as long as yours :)
      El xx

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    2. Whoops just realised my phone autocorrected 'lovely' to 'ugly' haha x

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  3. Don't worry too much, just keep doing everything you enjoy and hopefully you'll end up doing a job that you love! Definitely keep working at your goals, especially the novel one! I'd love to see a book by you one day!!xx

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    1. That's my plan, I hope! And yeah, it would be truly awesome to be able to publish a book :)

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  4. I can't wait to read your novel, your a great writer! I really love your blog and I think anyone who comes across it will love to read it. I also share your last goal, and it's 'better said than done'. It's extremely hard to just accept what happened and even harder to forget it. Nice goals! I hope you'll achieve them someday!!
    ~Autumn
    hopefulfaithfulandcreative.blogspot.ae

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    1. Thank you so incredibly much, you have no idea how much that means to me! Yeah, I think it's one that many people have and yet they hide it. But I really do hope that you and I and everyone else struggling with it will get over it at some point. And so do I!
      El xx

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